HAPPINESS EVERYDAY 
sorry seems to be the hardest word.
♥ Posted at Saturday, 28 March 2009, 22:56
I am not angry.
neither am i unhappy over something also.
perhaps all i can blame was for being clumsy.
It's all the medicine's fault,
for making me so drowsy and clumsy.
I spilled milk tea at xiao fang in the afternoon, pour the ice at the milk tea instead of the ice tub..
dropped a tub of ice-cream on my foot.
which was so hurtful.. ):
late at night, i dropped all the pearls on the floor.
i just don't know why..
all i just wanted to take the pearls and put it all inside the cup and to start preparing for closing.
that's all. very simple.
i didn't mean anything.
But i don't know what makes you to yell at me so angrily..
not to even ask a why from you...
i cannot control my tears rolling down on my cheek..
after you left, i just squat down and cried..
i'm not unhappy or angry or anything else.
i was just bored, drowsy and feeling so unwell..
and you insisted that i was feeling upset, moody or unhappy over smth.
really nothing.
Went to visit the doctor this afternoon before i went for work.
cos my flu was still on..and my ears is always blocked..
so blocked that i'm trying my best to hear people taking with 1 of my ears..
my headache was so painful than it used to be.
I was so afraid smth bad will happen,as it's smth to do with the head..so i didn't want to put it aside and just let it heal as days goes by.
doc: wad color was ur phlegm?
me: green
doc: it's green bcos ur phlegm is full of germs.. that's why it causes ur nose and ears to be block at all times.
me: oh. okay. and what abt my headache? why do i run or bend down, it'll be so hurtful?
doc: It's all ur phlegm causes it..
me: okay, thank you.
that was it.. almost gave me a fright.. i thought smth bad will happen. lols.
i got to finished all my pills even if i've recovered..
ps: perhaps no one would understand what i am going through..
just got to remind myself to be stronger each time when i'm growing weaker..
goodnight everyone.